See, I have one problem...if you ask my wife I am sure she would laugh and snort saying..."Just one?"...but I have one problem that I need to work on and I am being convicted of.
The Bible tells us in Matthew 5:16 to do things to glorify God and give glory to Heaven. I know that God has given me an amazing gift to preach and teach others, and I love it. Children and youth hold a very special place in my heart. It is amazing to see these kids grow in the Lord, and know that God used me to impact these kids. When I am approached and people say great job with the kids, I am not sure what to say..."Thank you?"
Sometimes I feel that if I say too much, I am just looking for more compliments, but I like the compliments and that is what I am being convicted of. I know I need to give that glory to Heaven. I need to step back and let God have that glory because He was the one who placed me where I am and has given me what He has.
Also, I want things to happen in my time. So I guess this is something else I am being convicted of...y wife was correct. I want soooooo much to be in these kids lives more, and to be there for them, but I just don't have the time with a more than full time job and school. I want to be with them all the time. When we are on breaks, I literally miss them so much I feel there is an empty spot in my life. But I know God has a plan for me and my family, and my that will be shown to me when the time comes. But I quote a famous line from Willy Wonka and the Chocolate Factory; "But I want it now!" I guess I have to work on this.
Typing this blog out has helped me to realize that I need to step back and let God take over my life. I need to watch what he is planning for me. I appreciate all the leadership at my church (Pastor Jim, Jayson Combs, Ernesto Alaniz) and others, and I truly love all of you. I pray that God will bring me to be the Christian man that you are.
Thank you Lord for the blessing of being able to reach out to children, and I pray you give me the patience and guidance necessary to step back and let you take control. Help me to glorify you for the gifts you have given me.